you should leave me alone. your very existence makes me sick. whenever I look at you only rage overwhelms me. you don't know this cause I never told you. I told you I need you. no. I realize that you are not healthy for me. I rather die than to see you again. yep yep. so make me happy and go make new friends and leave me alone. ouh, right... go to her.
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so, trip to Indonesia was fun. hoho. but I feel annoyed that no one listens to me anymore. ouh well. maybe it's just me. wait, no it's not. yea, no one listens to me. I'm like a piece of redundant painting that people paint just cause they are bored and then shove me aside. then when they get bored again, they pick me up edit me and shove me again. yeah. life's like that.
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no, I'm not emo. I'm just pissed. I can't get anything done for AFA. It's only lucky I can get to see May'n on Sunday, if I can make it. stop ranting to me about things I don't wanna know. you freaking know what I don't wanna hear, so stop. it's unhealthy already. god, I have feelings you know. stop filtering my feelings and do what you like. you have other friends, rant to them or something. come on, YOU DON'T NEED ME AT ALL. don't come and go as you like as if my life is a hotel. dude, I'm human.
ugh.. ps... yes I'm totally talking about you. do you feel hurt now? do you feel annoyed? angry? pissed? betrayed? am I being a totally hypocrite? aww. welcome to my world love. the feelings mutual now. I'm being bitch now. I'm sorry. Love ya.
ps. of course I won't tell the whole word the name. it's mean. T___T no not you la ... (if you are thinking about yourself) - if you read, just ask me alright, I'll tell.
what? I'm angry okay!
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ouh yea. i saw a beautiful lady in a sari the other day when I came back from work. she looks exceptionally beautiful. I lost the sight of her and I cried. Idk. then I saw her again at the platform. Stunning. why is there such a beautiful person right i front of my eyes?
Tiring. lol. @___@ hate my work now. getting blamed for things I didn't do. I get credits for their mistakes, they get credits for my deeds (not saying I don't make mistakes) but come on. No matter what I do, I'm still the one with mistakes. FUCK YOU ALL.
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I'm serious. I'm pissed, so don't ask me to meet you. freaking annoying. State clearly for god knows how many times. so don't ask three four time at the same time.
"ouh, I'm near you, wanna meet?" "I don't feel like meeting anyone right now." "sure? if you need someone to talk to, I'm here, wanna meet?" "No, but thanks. I need to be alone.. (I'M TIRED LEH)" "I'm near your area. Meet me if you want."
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS ... CONVERSATION?
I'm 20. Just 20. You're 22, 2 years ahead of me, 2 years more experience, 2 years more suffering, 2 years more life. Between the 2 years of me not existing, you learned things, see things, experience things... There's always something more from you.
So please, don't say, I beg you, not to say, you know nothing.
I'm going crazy. I'm so sorry T__________T loveyootwinny w(whhaaat)w
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I'm starting to.. go crazy for Macross Frontier again. I realize, they are built together with collections great songs of all time. May'n and Megumi's raw talent. Their voices are to die for. LOOK AT THEIR PRESENCE. (more interested in audience. lol. COME ON, MODEL AUDIENCE OKKAY!)
[can't put them into HD cause it would be too big for my blog.]
[Click HERE for better view.]
ps. credits to mfrontierlive for the video <3 and.. Tam, is my latest obsession. FRIGGIN AWESOME. I wanna up my level to his (impossible). This is my current fav. The violin.. is... crazy. (must...go...practice)
[Click HERE to view his collections]
ps. credits to violinpiano2.
hais. practice, practice.
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ps. I miss Chiroru, JJ, Huda, ZK and KH.
miss my brownie icecream... my wasabi.
I miss Mochi-chan, SUUUKI-CHAN?!, Ji Hyun, Nara..
*diabolical!
going against gravity, diabolical, loves to read, eats ice cream without being depressed, doesn't like the day, love sunflowers, mad about strawberries,
loves to lie under water, wants to climb mountains, wants to bungee jump, loves cakes, doesn't smile often, dislike sadness, doesn't sleep. (no, I kid, I'm not diabolical)-
actually, I'm not really a die hard fan of REMILIA SCARLET, she's my SECOND favorite, MY FAVORITE OBVIOUSLY HAZ TO BE HER MAID, IZAYOI SAKUYA, if I have someone as loyal as that,
I will love her forever. Actually I do and I LOVE HER WITH MY WHOLE HEART AND SOUL <3<3
