look on the bright side. I moved on.. but I can't look at his face. I hate him to the earth's core. I hate his eyes, his smile, his way or walking, he's way of talking, and now I realise, he's a total loser. I have no idea why I still dwell on the past.. but because of him, I cannot get these thoughts out of my head.
Now I'm thinking that whatever is ever happening to me and honey is gonna be a same one. But why? Why am I doubting honey? Who is not the same as him. Who did nothing wrong. Honey is different. Am I being paranoid or is it..like a preparation? For me to be prepared for the worst... but I know, even if I am prepared, I will still get hurt. No matter how much I tell myself, I know this feeling, I'm not gonna cry, I still will... cause the feeling of having the person you love leave you just like that is suicide.
Sometimes, I do feel hurt.. but I rather not tell, cause he will be all emo and hate himself and I don't want that to happen, so I rather not share my feelings. Though nowadays, I've become more honest with my feelings and my reactions to his actions. but it doesn't mean I love him lesser.
I hate to see him not smiling. I feel hurt. I love you.
