oh gracious. changing blogskin is hard when blogger skin preview screw up. I have to save and edit and save and edit. tedious. why you so mean to me blogger, i love you more than any site.

I changed the song cause I love this song more than anything else in the world and it reminds me of someone. also this song doesn't hurt my head when I listen to it, instead it helps me whenever I feel down. weird. a song would mean so much to me. I love Kazuma & Vivian.

I need a new mic. and it cost a fortune. not really but it's $400. I need my $332 Shure headphones with it. for the love of god. so many things to buy. I need a new guitar,, guitars actually, god bless for making me both handed. left and right hand and people keep bugging me to play on the right where else when I started I was on the left but I'm right handed.

New Year is coming and don't ask me resolution. It's the bloody same every year. This year is terrible. okay not really, I swear I had SOME good moments. but the worst is definitely this year. This year my sister got married, this year I broke up with my bf, this year I worked at a cafe and quit two months later, this year I ARGUED A LOT WITH MY TWINNY, this year my tears seems to fall faster, this year I'm more sensitive.. and this year I run away from a lot of things. This year too I met Chiroru for the first time and end of year, I met Kozue, I met Huda. Told you it wasn't that bad.

Next year? I think I'll do what I always wanted to do. Since people can't cooperate with me for their own good, I will do it myself. I will do everything myself. I'll sing by myself (insert my little twin), I'll dance by myself, I will learn new instruments, new languages, teach people languages, work, school, cosplay, pay loans, forgive a lot of people, ask for forgiveness, have my own wardrobe, start writing my own songs, eat lesser (actually I already am), take care of my twin's feelings, take care of my own feelings, take care of my mother, have a pet goldfish, have a pet cat, have a pet rabbit, have no boyfriend for the whole year, visit my father more ofter, go to Germany to visit my sister, pray, recital, not to get angry at little things, be more sensitive to people's feeling, run up and down the staircase more often, go to the gym, swim, run, play badminton, play tennis, play more dota, play starcraft, get xboz, get a wii, get 3ds, get psp, TURN MY BODY CLOCK BACK TO NORMAL... and make myself happy. I will not let people put me down, I will not have any emotional hazards, I will learn to care lesser when needed and care more when needed. I will learn to control.. my ego LOL

SERIOUSLY .. TWIN, I'M NOT LYING WHEN I SAY I AM UPSET BECAUSE YOU ARE UPSET, I'M UPSET BECAUSE I MADE YOU UPSET, I'M UPSET BECAUSE I'M AN ASSHOLE.. NOT BECAUSE YOU MADE ME UPSET. Twins be twins honey.

I'm gonna celebrate NYE with people, - watching fireworks. having picnic at the most darkest place in Singapore. Baking goddamn cookies. Making goddamn sandwiches. I WANT TO EAT SUBWAY! anw, adios lovely people. I LOVE YOU.

who to thank this year? My mother, my brothers, my sisters, okaasan, umma, tatsuki suki, mochi, twin (KAI HENG), dawn, tim, setsuko, myon, rozen, kuuki, amber, k0sm0s, broken, karei, yasuka, alvin, calvin, kozue, chiroru, jia jun, huda, fin, zouk, xuan, ANGEL, yamada, clement, DEBBIE, MAKO, TAM, melvin, eli, knife, ikura, misato(misty), axy, lisa scinta, sex and the city, Kya, dope, keiji, reita, moonie, dramuu, azumi, lotus, hisoka, vidtid,.. (THE WHOLE CLUBBLEACH FAMILY)

I CANNOT REMEMBER ANYMORE! -


people I miss? My sister, Lorraine, Horse, Karei, my cat Fluffy, my bunny MICKEY BIT, my hamsters.. I miss the time when the whole group do something goofy together.

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