what in the world can make people change? what can possibly make people insane? well, not insane(insane), just insane that he can't be in the right mind anymore that he can't know what he's doing. could it possibly be that no one is treating him right?
i do not know.
days pass actually. I didn't wrote down any thing.. but I do occasionally, have questions.
On mother's day, we all went out. I didn't really know when mother's day was actually. I got to know that it doesn't have the date. It's the second Sunday of May. so, anw, we went out for food (well, duhh). We went around city plaza (somewhat, can't rmb), and it's full of Indonesians. I have nothing against that. Really. We wanted to eat at a place call Es Teler. It was a really a bad place to eat. The condition, the environment was at the worst of state. What surprised me is that, smokers are suppose to be seated inside the tent, no outside and people not going off after eating, so they just sit there, doing nothing and just chatting. Of course, we are furious, what are they thinking? Do they think they can do what they do back in their place.. ?
Is it our fault that sometimes we just don't like foreigners?
Love is the question... in everybody's mind. What makes love? For this, I definitely do not know. Is love about you giving happiness for the other half's happiness? Or that we too must feel happy about making them happy. Is it a no to be selfish? Is it wrong to think about yourself sometimes instead of always thinking about the other? I, on the other hand, is trying hard to be understanding towards my other half. I will do it even though I don't really like it, so he can be happy and things won't be so complicated anymore... and the more I think of it, it's worth it.
What makes a person happy? Really?
My sister is getting married. It feels so ... dreamy. Marriage itself scares me. Well, I'm just 20, what do I know about marriage... but how do you know you find the right one? This isn't just a science experiment that when you make mistakes and can try over and over again. Things happen in my family is the reason why I'm afraid of the Marriage subject. What if it turns bad? Men are scary. They can be nice when they want something, and can be real mean if they suddenly loose their interest.
So, if everything makes Marriage scary, why do people still wanna get married?
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so, all the qns aside. I'm back normal with Al. He's fine with me and I'm slowly no longer angry with him, I can now look him in the eye and talk to him...and not feel some sort of RAAAAGE in me. Dawn fed me icecream LOL ! Everyone is enthu for cosfest. Getting costume done and stuff, my costume is still in the process .. Thank God I have Tim, Kuuki and Dawn. Thanks Mel for paying my down payment for me. Myon is enthu abt the dance.. I am too, I'm so happy to get on my feet again, we've been on hiatus for so long. I miss all the tapping of my feet. The joy of dancing <3 I wanted watch Iron Man 2 but I cancelled. Well, I WAS pissed, but I don't rly care anymore. I need to get back on my books ... so many need to be retouched and my drawings. I miss drawing. <3 it seems years. anw, of all that happened, I am still right where I am..
In Love ...
