do I deserve to be treated well? well do I? I love him. Yes I do. He loves me, that's what he says. He's everything to me. Yes. He's too good to me, I think so. I feel guilty cause he's always home late when he sent me home and he lives all the way at the other side. He pays for most of what I eat. I don't feel good. I want to treat him better, I will. What am I suppose to do? He's too nice, too good to be true. Is he?
I'm worried about things. Things I can't tell, I'm just so so worried that everything I had plan will go to waste because of my mistake. MAJOR MISTAKE. Somehow I'm happy that I did, but on the other hand, I feel sad and guilty. This time I really think I'm dumb. I know it's wrong but I still do it and I'm worried now. I will KILL myself. Nothing matters now.
Tomorrow, I shall start on my Patchy. I just need layout.. I need socks. I may just buy a dye and dye with leg warmers. Then I will sew it just like a pair of socks! >..> though, I have no idea where to find dye. >..> I saw a very nice small book as my second book for Patchouli. Book of spells in CQ's Kinokuniya. For the 1st book, aie, Dawn wanted Wikipedia with a search panel on the first page.. LOL! He wanted it. So, I'm gonna do it LOL for the lul sake.
Should be ready by AFA. Hope so.. Or I just do, Suwako? >..> MUST FIND WIG!
