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I'm doing a sig for Yui! LOL, kinda hard to look for suitable stock for her.. but nevertheless. Pink suits here right? Right? LOL xD Tomorrow, may have another video shoot.
Damn, I'm tired of Touhou. Somehow. Everytime I play Touhou, I can only last for 10 minutes, then I'm done. Sometimes, I fall asleep. Though, I still panic at times. HOW CAN YOU NOT?
Yesterday I got scolded. Heh, I get scolded everyday.. but yesterday was way too much. Got scolded cause I hang clothes too late, then gradually became bigger because of something else. My mother started nagging by herself. She said that I only care about what she does bad than what she does good. Well, I kinda feel the irony of it right when she said it. She doesn't see what I do good, but she only see what I did bad. Everyone here does. They weigh every single mistake I make leaving the good one so that at the end of the day, no matter how much good I do, the bad weighs a little much heavier.
All of them except for me and my little sister are above 20.. IMO, because of that, they look down on us. Just because we are younger and little. I cannot help it that I'm still a NEET. My sister cannot help it that she is still a student. I find it unfair that they use that as a weakness, because both of us are unemployed. "You don't wanna do this, don't live here."
I don't wanna live with you people forever and I'm sure you guys feel the same way. My mother said that if she goes back to Indonesia where she was born, don't bother come visiting.. because it will only trouble her. If that's the case then fine. If you see my future like that, troubling you just like I do now, then fine.
I'm not saying I'm a saint. I'm a mere human and human does have his/her own mistakes. Maybe mother is right, maybe I am down right evil. That's why I always end up being alone. That's why I'm always the odd one out... but do you all have to treat me as the odd one out too when I'm at home?
I just wish one day, everyone who makes me unhappy, disappear into thin air. Maybe for just a day or two. Maybe that would me feel happy. DISAPPEAR.
