I feel like running away. Have you ever thought that one day you just don't wanna come home? You come home feeling devastated cause you went to look for something important didn't make a difference. Have you ever being put in a spotlight of bad things? Bad things started to happen after one another. I feel stupid right now? Really stupid. I feel like running away and that is what I'm gonna do today.
I woke up 5 am in the morning, wash the dishes, wash the clothes and I'm gonna go over to my friend's house and spent the day there today. I'm gonna play like crazy and come home tired BECAUSE I feel that like shit today. Yesterday, I lost 7 BUCKS and you cannot help it not to ask Mother. Mother didn't gave me any money but nags instead.
Yesterday, I went to looks for a job. Some interview and said they'll call me back, I have no confidence at all. I suck at job searching. I came home got nagged at cause Mother said I was lazy. FINE. IF I WAS THAT LAZY, they house won't even look clean. I rather kill myself right now.
I WANT TO RUN AWAY!
My brother is very happy cause he is so much in love. Words cannot describe how happy he feels that he has the best partner in the world. I WISH YOU HAPPINESS. I cannot feel envious of him though I am right now. How can life be so good for him while life is at it's worst point of me?
I'm attracted to the guy who is pretty ignorant about his surroundings. Though that he is, he still kinda care about some people. He's childish, yes, but at the same time old enough to be look upon. He's not you average guy you know. When I say NOT, meaning he's really is NOT. He's fine with everything everyone does even though he somehow feels uncomfortable with it. He's the simplest person I know and I could be attracted to. To be around him, I can NEVER be awkward even if he knows I like him but even so, I feel that friendship rules over anything.
but he's stone-hearted. He has been through some kind of pain that he does not believe in "Love" that exist in a relationship. He does not believe in relationship under the age of 25. Sound kinda similar right? Cause I have the same opinion just like his. Though that, you can never fight the feeling of liking someone. How can he fight that? I want to know.
I don't want to get hurt. So I chose to just be where I am right now? Regrets.. yes, but if I were to lose a friend, no. People kept saying, " Tell him, Tell him. " You people be me and get to know him and you will know why I prefer having him as a friend till the day I die than to be in a relationship that I know won't last.
Besides, it will be so WEIRD. seriously.
