So what now? Nothing.
Hey, I'm the writer of my own thoughts cum the writer of a Love book. Not your everyday fairy tale love story, more like on the reality side. Fairy tales are like the Prince's love at first sight with a Maiden or a Princess. Their kiss is a seal of their love and they live happily ever after. It's all bull**** actually. None of it are true. It's a story book. Actually I like those, it lets your mind wonder off from reality. It's all romance.
The reality side.. is actually much more of a the opposite. Love.. what is it? How can you prove it? Why do people say "LOVE"? When?
Love. You cannot prove it. It's not something logical, it's not something you can find in a book, it's not even something Scientist can find out.. in fact, it's not even "something". When it comes to love, even the most smartest human in the world can go blank. How do you know when you love someone? How do you know that the feeling you're having is love? Exclude the love you have for your family, that's a different story. When? Is it love you're feeling for someone you gonna get married to?
Yes, I have never been in love. Crushes yes, Love no. I'm 19 years old and I'm looking at it in very different kind of view. For other 19 year old, they're in a more nicer, romantic, sweet, on cloud nine kinda mood but for me, I don't know. I just can't understand it. It's difficult for me to say it cause I really can't tell for sure if it's true. But for once, I do wanna hear sweet nothings from that person just for me.. or receive flowers out of no reason at all.. just because it's Wednesday...whatever. That's what I can call really sweet. Yes. The day I'd say "I Love You" is the day I die... on my death bed..
Love is never complicated.. it's simple, but yet people get fooled by it. People fall into a deep hole and can't get out. People get blinded by it... they know it but yet they still have hope. Love is a savior but also a murderer. Yes. It's both and I'm standing in the middle.
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-dang- I watched too much Sex in the City xD I love Sarah Jessica Parker and
Louis Vuitton. I don't like branded things cause when I do, my eyes are on those. T.T (dies) Unfortunately, I'm in love with fashion but yet I don't think I have any.. I don't dress so fashionable like those you see on TV. I'm not in those Japanese, Taiwanese fashion. I'm more into those like, Gucci, Prada and of course Louis Vuitton. Unfortunately, I'm not rich, so they are all in my dreams. SAD! You can call me dillusional, but hey, I like those.
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I'm a little pissed with someone.. these days. These things just kept popping out in my head. On how she left me without a word. Sorry doesn't cure what you did. Yes, I was wrong. I'm not a Saint. Neither are you.. but how can you say such things when you're the one who's useless. I mean seriously, you're the one who's doing nothing. He was the one who brought you in and you said he's not doing anything? ARE YOU FREAKING BLIND? He's the one who comes down every week and do whatever he has to do.. Yes, he fool around once in a while but he's done it... You, I never seen a slightest movement from you. What makes you have the right to say anything about him? You come and slack all day.. shouting here and there, smiling here and there, laughing here and there. I have eyes you know and as far as I can see, you're the one doing nothing but fooling around. So when you get somewhere his standard, you can come telling me he's useless.
I'm Alice.. and I'm somewhere in the middle.
